Saturday, June 19, 2010

So much to say, so little time...

I haven't been here in about a month. I thought at first that I would just lay low for the month of June, as it is two weeks before the year anniversary of my Daddy's passing. But, I am here, and now I don't know the words to use.

T has been diagnosed bi-polar (finally, a diagnosis), and he has been working really hard on his counseling and therapy. We are going to let him play football in the fall, and he is really excited. I am hopeful that it will be one more step toward a stable life at home. Also, his room has been clean for 9 days now. 21 more and he can have his tv back, and he wants to get his ear pierced. We are learning to support and discipline, not simply support.

Among the other changes, my 11 year old has decided she would like to live with her father. I thought about this and prayed about this, and there is no easy answer. I will not make her stay, when she is obviously miserable. Also, I will not make everyone else in this household miserable by having to deal with her unhappiness.

And so... I write this, and while I know I overshare, I hope for your thoughts and kind words. I am heartbroken at the thought of losing my child, but I hope that she will find the place she needs to be.


  1. Teenagers often don't know what they really want. You might get her back soon.

  2. Wow, that's a load to deal with. My kindest thoughts are with you.

  3. Thank you both, I am still hoping for a miracle

  4. I agree with The Mother...your daughter may find that the grass isn't greener over at her father's and she will be back. What's important is for her to find this out on her own, otherwise she'll never really know it. She needs both experiences so she can compare. Even if she chooses to stay with her father, this will open better relations for you and her later on because when she grows up, she will realize the freedom you gave her. Instead of being resentful towards you for making her stay with you, she will be grateful to you for letting her go. I know it is hard for you to think about missing out on her teenage years, however, you are doing the best thing for her and that is what unselfish motherly love is all about - sacrifice for the sake of your children. My guess is that she will miss you more than she realizes.

  5. @bystander-thanks for your kind words!!